Sunday, 18 March 2012

you have ...

... completely ruined me for any other man. Damn you for that. I'm trying with all of my heart to let you go and create a new life for myself. I've been on a number of dates, I've spent quite a bit of time getting to know one or two men, lovely men, but I just feel empty inside. Numb. Vacant. I don't know what else to do. I work hard, I have a busy life, I'm trying so hard to make a new life for myself and to live fully again. I have new friends, I socialise, I'm working on my house. I don't let myself think about you, I push you out of my mind whenever you jump in, which is less and less than it used to be. But god how I love you, and miss you, and long for you.

I think I could let you go if only I could move on and make a real life for myself. But it still seems so impossible.

I would give just about anything to feel your arms around me again. Damn you for cutting me off the way you did and leaving me so shell-shocked.

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